Okay, so maybe I missed it by a couple of weeks...
Regardless, I'm kind of proud of the fact that I haven't totally forgotten about it and shelved it for eternity! Honestly, I've had a lot to say lately, just not enough time to say it. But, I got up early-ish today so I could accomplish some things, and those things having been accomplished, I have a little time to write!
Summer is going by far too quickly for my taste. I am ready to be back at Blue Mountain, but only to see my friends. I'd like to forget the fact that going back to school actually means going back to school. It's a good thing I'm looking at graduating this year; I'm not sure I could take this "senioritis" thing for much longer than that. Summers have changed a lot since high school; my whole family works now, so it's no longer about planning things on my dad's vacation. We have to co-ordinate four separate and drastically different work schedules to get any semblance of "family vacation." I did get to go out for ice cream with my dad a couple of weeks ago, just him and me. ^_^
Before I head to the Mountain, I'm planning to pitch a tent in the back yard, so I can say I went camping at least once this summer. That used to be our family's "thing," loading up the truck and van to camp at Rough River State Park and take the boat out on the lake. Many, many good memories up there. =] I'd also like to have a bonfire before the summer is over, but seeing as we live next to a subdivision and a fire station, I'm not sure how well that would go over.
Online classes continue to haunt my daily existence. This is week four of two eight-week classes I'm taking through Campbellsville University. Long story, but it's been a nightmare trying to get these things in order. Lots of busywork as well, which is highly irritating. My repeated mantra lately is "earlygraduationearlygraduationearlygraduation!"
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22 April 2011
Disjointed Confessions
I don’t want Him enough. I can’t put it any other way. I say this out of frustration with myself. I want to want Him more, but I’m so easily distracted by other things. You know how it goes, you get into a really good book study and you’re beginning to understand things and…I was starting 1 John about two months ago—taking it slow, practicing my Greek, reading commentaries, writing good notes—when I simply allowed myself to be pulled away. When I’m in the Word, I crave it; I feel lost the first few days when I’m straying, but then it becomes easier and easier until I’m doing just fine without it. The truth is, that’s when I’m at my worst. It’s like this Chinese guy told me once about ping-pong (and you know how serious they are about ping-pong in China…): don’t practice for one day and you know it; don’t practice for two days and your opponent knows it; don’t practice for a week and everyone knows it.
I’m not okay without Jesus. I’m poor, wretched, naked, and blind without Jesus. Friend, you’re not okay without Jesus. We’ve got to stop pretending we can handle it ourselves. We’re fallen, far from perfect, missing the mark day after day, falling short, incapable-however you want to put it. We can’t do life without Jesus. These distractions are idols in disguise. They draw us away into worshipping them before we even realize what’s happening. One of my biggest idols is academia. Ask anyone who knows me and they’ll tell you I’ve got a thing for getting good grades. I would consider it utter failure to fall below a B in any class. I require excellence of myself in my schoolwork, so why don’t I apply that to my relationship with Christ? Why don’t I see it as utter failure when I haven’t spent time with my Savior in days?
Here’s something to think about: relationships are formed and developed through dialogue. (See, Mom and Dad, here’s something I’m learning from my Theatre minor!) If He’s talking and you’re not listening, there’s no development going on. If you’re not talking, zilch, zero. Here’s something else to think about: check out the language of this verse in 1 John. “…whoever says he abides in Him ought to walk in the same way in which He walked.” My Greek professor translates it this way. It’s a little more difficult to read, but he really gets the feel and action of the verbs. “The one who goes on claiming to abide in Him has a continuing obligation just as that One lived even he himself to go on walking.” If I claim Christ, I have an obligation to be continually striving to live as He lived. How is that? Pursuing of the will of the Father (John 6:38; 5:30; 4:34). Living a holy life (1 Peter 1:15-16). There is so much more I could say, but it’s late and I’m tired. We are to live like Christ by portraying faith, love, obedience to the Father, self-sacrifice, holiness, and the limitless list of His characteristics. You think this is impossible? Yes, it is impossible alone. We can’t do it without God’s grace. Lucky for us, He gives if we ask. Check out James 4:1-10 for more on that. I’m goin’ to get some shut-eye after He and I spend some time talking.
I’m not okay without Jesus. I’m poor, wretched, naked, and blind without Jesus. Friend, you’re not okay without Jesus. We’ve got to stop pretending we can handle it ourselves. We’re fallen, far from perfect, missing the mark day after day, falling short, incapable-however you want to put it. We can’t do life without Jesus. These distractions are idols in disguise. They draw us away into worshipping them before we even realize what’s happening. One of my biggest idols is academia. Ask anyone who knows me and they’ll tell you I’ve got a thing for getting good grades. I would consider it utter failure to fall below a B in any class. I require excellence of myself in my schoolwork, so why don’t I apply that to my relationship with Christ? Why don’t I see it as utter failure when I haven’t spent time with my Savior in days?
Here’s something to think about: relationships are formed and developed through dialogue. (See, Mom and Dad, here’s something I’m learning from my Theatre minor!) If He’s talking and you’re not listening, there’s no development going on. If you’re not talking, zilch, zero. Here’s something else to think about: check out the language of this verse in 1 John. “…whoever says he abides in Him ought to walk in the same way in which He walked.” My Greek professor translates it this way. It’s a little more difficult to read, but he really gets the feel and action of the verbs. “The one who goes on claiming to abide in Him has a continuing obligation just as that One lived even he himself to go on walking.” If I claim Christ, I have an obligation to be continually striving to live as He lived. How is that? Pursuing of the will of the Father (John 6:38; 5:30; 4:34). Living a holy life (1 Peter 1:15-16). There is so much more I could say, but it’s late and I’m tired. We are to live like Christ by portraying faith, love, obedience to the Father, self-sacrifice, holiness, and the limitless list of His characteristics. You think this is impossible? Yes, it is impossible alone. We can’t do it without God’s grace. Lucky for us, He gives if we ask. Check out James 4:1-10 for more on that. I’m goin’ to get some shut-eye after He and I spend some time talking.
Whosoever, then, really perceives what fellowship with God is, will be satisfied with it alone, and will no more burn with desires for other things. - John Calvin on 1 John 1:4
01 February 2011
A Night in the Life of a Desk Worker
6:51 p.m.
Just threw out Campus Cat. I was on my hands and knees in the Modenian parlor, looking under the couches, when I turned around to see Campus Cat looking at me from the faculty parlor. Softball players looked at me funny when I threw the animal out the door.
7:02 p.m.
7:12 p.m.
It’s very windy...
7:27 p.m.
Watching the UK/Ole Miss game. I’m gonna need my Wildcats to pull this one out. Don’t they know I go to school in Mississippi?
7:32 p.m.
Starting homework...joy... We’ll see how long this lasts.
8:00 p.m.
Emily Beth has come to visit and to mock my pain as I watch the Cats lose by ONE POINT to Ole Miss.
8:24 p.m.
Emily Beth has deserted me, but Acey and Chelsea (henceforth refered to as Chacey) are hangin’ around now, as well as John and Allison (Jollison?). Allison bought sticky lizards, which she is sharing. I’ve got a green one hanging from my computer screen. Acey is not interested because he can’t eat them.
I’m being educated on the wonders of Sea Monkeys. This is fascinating. I want some.
8:58 p.m.
My roomie and Carmen brought me pizza! ^_^
9:30 p.m.
Harbor and Cyle just left...Cyle squirted me with his water bottle. I am now wet. Thank you so much, Cyle. -_-
10:13 p.m.
Doooooooon’t waaaaaaaaaannaaaaa dooooooo Greeeeeeeeek hoooooomework. >_<
10:17 p.m.
Snarky Softballer: Who won the basketball game?
Me: *glare* [mutter] Stupid Rebels...[/mutter]
10:40 p.m.
Greek homework...'s gonna take me εις τον αιώνα...
11:38 p.m.
Twenty-two more minutes... Soooo sleeeeeepy...
Homework accomplished! ^_^
11:53 p.m.
Almost finished. A rather uninteresting night. Maybe I'll do this again when something worthwhile happens. Then again, it's a rather boring job. But it is a job. =]
Just threw out Campus Cat. I was on my hands and knees in the Modenian parlor, looking under the couches, when I turned around to see Campus Cat looking at me from the faculty parlor. Softball players looked at me funny when I threw the animal out the door.
7:02 p.m.
7:12 p.m.
It’s very windy...
7:27 p.m.
Watching the UK/Ole Miss game. I’m gonna need my Wildcats to pull this one out. Don’t they know I go to school in Mississippi?
7:32 p.m.
Starting homework...joy... We’ll see how long this lasts.
8:00 p.m.
Emily Beth has come to visit and to mock my pain as I watch the Cats lose by ONE POINT to Ole Miss.
8:24 p.m.
Emily Beth has deserted me, but Acey and Chelsea (henceforth refered to as Chacey) are hangin’ around now, as well as John and Allison (Jollison?). Allison bought sticky lizards, which she is sharing. I’ve got a green one hanging from my computer screen. Acey is not interested because he can’t eat them.
I’m being educated on the wonders of Sea Monkeys. This is fascinating. I want some.
8:58 p.m.
My roomie and Carmen brought me pizza! ^_^
9:30 p.m.
Harbor and Cyle just left...Cyle squirted me with his water bottle. I am now wet. Thank you so much, Cyle. -_-
10:13 p.m.
Doooooooon’t waaaaaaaaaannaaaaa dooooooo Greeeeeeeeek hoooooomework. >_<
10:17 p.m.
Snarky Softballer: Who won the basketball game?
Me: *glare* [mutter] Stupid Rebels...[/mutter]
10:40 p.m.
Greek homework...'s gonna take me εις τον αιώνα...
11:38 p.m.
Twenty-two more minutes... Soooo sleeeeeepy...
Homework accomplished! ^_^
11:53 p.m.
Almost finished. A rather uninteresting night. Maybe I'll do this again when something worthwhile happens. Then again, it's a rather boring job. But it is a job. =]
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